Filtered from Erland

[thehellflowers]

So... what do you do when you want a fresh start and the one with the keys to do so won't give the choice to do so?

Comments

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Improvise.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Don't want to improvise. I feel like a wreck if I remember.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Distract yourself from what you remember. If you keep thinking about it, it will just bother you more and more. You'll be amazed at how many things can sink to the back of the mind, if you focus on anything other than that. If it weren't possible, I'd probably be a wreck myself, as well.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

That's the problem, I can't focus. All my energy has vanished, all my desire feels dead.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

And that is what we call "depression", a normal part of everyone's life cycle, in which all motivation and desire to do anything seems to wilt and blow away into the wind~

Of course, that's when people who aren't in depression give a swift kick to the head of the one who is.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

It's not just that... Nobody wants to remember their father going to hell.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

And nobody would want to remember almost drowning to death. Or going insane. Or losing their entire family.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

And I'd rather not deal with the fact that the man I'm possibly in love with is just going to vanish.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

And what of the chance that he'll return? I would think... That if he's going to be taken away, he'd want at least incentive to return.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Almost zero percent. I don't bet on anything not above 50%.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

So I take it that you despise chance, luck, and everything along those lines, Miss Vidya, or do you just not believe something could happen, if it's below 50%?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Former. And it's Kanna.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

A pity. Everything is made up of chance. Nothing is ever absolute. What were the chances of Mr. Jigokubana being literally sent to Hell, Miss Vidya?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Improbable.

And I don't know a Miss Vidya. My name. Is. Kirihana. Kanna.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Then I guess you'll have to stand chances and risks.

You are "Vidya" to me.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Why do you all hate me.

I am not. Vidya.

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Hate you? Since when did anyone ever say that we hated you?

And I don't listen to when people are wallowing in self-pity, Miss Vidya.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

... Who's Miss Vidya?

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

You are.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

... I am?

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

...Weren't we just having an argument over how I see you as "Miss Vidya", and how you disagreed of the fact that I refused to call you what you wanted to be called, despite the fact that name is already associated with me in another person?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

We were...?

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

...Did you hit yourself in the head, Miss Vidya? Did I cause you to?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Did you? o_o

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

....What do you remember, Miss Vidya?