To Mr. Eusebius

[thehellflowers]

What exactly is going on with you...

And why do I get the feeling you might be related to my memory loss?

Comments

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Perhaps it doesn't matter since you're apparently happier this way.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

No. Not really... I feel anxious... Calm, but nervous. Calm because I can't worry without prior data. Nervous because I don't know anything.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Why would you be nervous?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Because I'm aware that I'm missing things people realize.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

And? At least you don't have to worry about anything you DO know.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

I WANT TO KNOW. I WANT TO WORRY.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...why?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Because Ignorance isn't an answer. I want. To. Know. Who. I. Am.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Even if knowing could make you depressed again?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

YES. I WANT TO KNOW WHO I AM, GODDAMNIT.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Why should that matter? Isn't ignorance bliss?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Never, is it ignorance an answer.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...so you want your memories back.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Of course. Cogito Ergo Sum. I THINK THEREFORE I AM. AND WITHOUT MEMORY I AM NOTHING.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

ALL of them?

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

I AM NOT ME WITHOUT THEM.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

...I'm glad we agree.

::Bampfs mental blocks away~ Memories of the past day or so would, of course, be intact still.::

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

... I hate you, Erland.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Oh? Obviously your memory has returned~

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Asshole. I'll admit. I was being depressed... But I will miss you.

You're a horrible person.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

I will miss you as well, Vidya. I think I made that much obvious.

I freely admit it~ Although I do wonder what, in particular, you mean.

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

Mmm...

Hmm?

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you finally got out of your depression though. It was getting rather... worrisome.

What, exactly, do you think makes me horrible? It's nice to have a reference to go on~

[thehellflowers.livejournal.com]

I needed the slap to my face...

That you play games like these.

[pureplainpatron.livejournal.com]

Yes, you did.

Heh, well, games are half the fun~

And in my defense, I DID try to talk you out of it first.